Getting you up to date on a few things.

[huronna]

First I should tell you what actually happened with Really.
Though it was an aueurism, he actually had a squishy tumor that was meshed around his intestine and stomach. Because it was soft and mushy, it could not have been felt and since the blood work was pointing at a kidney problem, that is what we were treating him for.
The tumor would have continued to grow and my poor baby would have suffered until things got so back we would have had to help him cross the bridge. Though we were totally devastated at the sudden lost of Really, we are thankfully that he went so fast and did not suffer.
We would rather be the ones to suffer with broken hearts than for him to have been in pain.

My husband and I were total basket cases for many days. We would just look at each other and break into tears.

Mac didn't know how to react with all the constant attention he was getting. He's always been quite independent, not liking to be cuddled but then never being a nipper or nasty either. Be here we were cuddlying him and holding him and then lo and behold we discovered that he had lumps under both front legs...I guess if he had arm pits, that is where they would be. And like about a month ago, he started with the dry cough. We had the clavamox from really, so immediately started Mac on it and were at the vet first thing Monday Morning. Blood work, x-rays and full exam. The x-ray shows a small cloudy spot that with his cough they though perhaps the beginning of pneumonia but with the immediate start of the antibiotics, we were hitting that right away. His blood work showed no insulinoma, as his glucose was in the upper 90's. No anemia, and all his chemistries are fine. He was given another 10 days of antibiotics and then we will repeat the x-ray. He's eating well, not lethargic and we are breathing a little sigh of relief.

Mac is over 6 so even if those lumps turn out to be lymphoma, it isn't the aggressive juvenile type it will be the slower adult variety and we will deal with that as best as possible.

So now you know why I have been a bit quiet. things have just been hitting us on the head.
Will keep you posted

[Lily]

Heidi, no one can blame you for being quiet........we all understand. Grief is so personal and everyone handles it different. I am same as you, I get very quiet. There's nothing you could have done differently with Really and I agree that although it is harder on you and Joe for the shock, it was better for Really not to slowly suffer and you have to watch him fade. We've all been through that, and we know what this is like. I also know the shock of a sudden loss and how devastating it is especially when you are so bonded with your ferret, and obviously you and Joe both were so close and bonded with Really.
I wrote you more on the memorial post, but I just want you to know how much I care, and how sad my heart is for you, and that I understand. Your boy will watch over you from the Bridge until the day you meet once more. Take the time you need to cry and grieve, take all the time you need for you. It's important to do that.
Love you and hugs and kindest of thoughts,
Lily xo

[dee517]

Heidi, you know of course you made the right choice for Really. It was the one that broke your heart. There was no way you where going to put your feelings above his comfort. Really is no longer in pain and dancing at the Rainbow Bridge. I have no idea how such a small creature can get such a tight hold on our hearts. I do know what a big hole they leave when they are no longer with us. You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers.

[spacecadet71]

Sending healing energy out to Mac. Totally understand where you are coming from.

[furballlover]

Keeping you and your husband in my thoughts. Totally understand where you are coming from.......

[dookcitygang]

Give mac a treat from me. HUGS.

[smokeyoshi]

Really went so soon after Kahlua I broke down again. I'm hoping it's not lymphoma for Mac, but we almost have to expect something to show up at that age.